i had an interesting dream last night.
it was at night and my friend(unknown person) called me and said, hey wanna come over to my place? i have a guy friend over. and i could tell that she was implying that she wanted to set me up with him and i was lonely and bored so i said okay cool and i came.
the setting was in a bedroom. the colors were white wall and blueish blankets.
and she had ddr on and we played for like two games, me and her guy friend on one mat an her on the other mat.
i had never met her guy friend before but i think he was white or something. he was a buff skinny guy, but more solid than skinny. his face looked like brad pitt’s, kinda. i can’t describe it because his face wasn’t important. it was his body that i remember the most.
anyways we didn’t have sex or anything. we just cuddled on the bed under the blankets, and he wasn’t wearing a shirt so i was pressing my head against his chest and he was really warm. i was hugging him really tightly. he made me feel safe, and i felt like i had known him for a long time, instead of just having met him. like we belonged together.
however morning came and things got trippy like they usually do in dreams.
my friend(now morphed into a girl i know from track) told me something about that guy. i forgot what. and then i said, i’m sorry, i can’t do this. my personality is messed up and i can’t handle this right now. i forgot in response to what. it appeared that i was letting her down a lot and i think she was so mad at me that tears came out. i keep remembering her anguished face.
i think i woke up soon after that
so throughout the whole morning i was thinking of that guy and how good it felt to have someone hold me.
and how sad i felt that there could be no one right now.
i swear, in the dream i felt him. i still remember the feeling of laying my head on the hard surface of his chest.
